Life

This morning, Dom getting out of bed woke me.It was 8:30. I don't like waking up, it doesn't matter what time of day it is, waking takes me an hour, and even then, I don't want to chat much. The B vitamins I have begun taking help me to feel awake a bit more quickly, but I still don't want to talk. I don't enjoy regular coffee much either. I love, love, love an almost frozen Starbucks Frappuccino. I can put a tiny smile on my face if I have one of those!

Mady and Niki always sleep until at least 9 am. Luke and Ezra are awake before me. Thankfully Dom is a morning person so he usually helps them get whatever it is their little hearts desire very first thing in the morning.

This morning, as every morning, I attempt to focus my attention on what is going on around me at the moment. The children obviously make that an easy thing to do since they are there, awake, excited, loving, and ready for whatever adventure the day may bring.

Wait! This morning isn't like that. Luke and Ezra both woke up with different needs today then usual. Our family had planned on visiting the aquarium today with Nenaw and Jessie. It was clear that is not what the boys needed. Upon asking them if they did indeed want to take the hour long trek to our previously decided destination, it was discovered they indeed were no longer interested. I quickly made the calls to let everyone know they could slow their mornings down and we hopped in the truck to fetch some much needed sugary syrup for wheat pancakes. (Sugary is all the closest store has. This didn't disappoint Luke and Ezra at all!) We rushed into the store, exchanged a few sentences with Lucy behind the counter, and raced home to cook breakfast. Luke and Ezra helped me mix ingredients. Before I was able to actually cook any pancakes, each of them was literally screaming for a different cereal. Request fulfilled. I continue cooking pancakes. Luke and Ezra eat 4 wheat pancakes in addition to cereal! Yeah, all our dispositions are improving. I have to remind myself several times we all have different needs this morning. I take a moment to look around me and just breath, drink a protein shake, hug Luke and Ezra. Now we sit down and snuggle on the sofa and watch Spongebob. Niki wakes and joins us on the sofa. Word World is on. We listen and say words slowly to hear all the sounds in each word. The boys feel better. We talk about going to the store for an inflatable pool (sturdy plastic one bit the dust-decide it's not so sturdy.) Luke and Ezra want to play cars and Niki and Mady want to watch YouTube videos. I think it maybe a good time to write something about our family.

Lately, between reading, and talking with some amazing mom friends, it has occurred to me I dwell too much in other places instead of in the present moment with my family. Not only does this effect each of us now, it will continue to effect my children as I am passing these habits onto them, unintentionally. Time to shift my way of thinking, being, living. Wake up, be here now, not in some fantastic fantasy or miserable memory.